Friday 2 May 2014

The need for rules?

This girl has been wondering about rules, about whether she already has any and whether she needs any more (if she has them in the first place).

Why don't you know if you have any? You may well ask (and probably are asking). Well it kind of isn't like that. No rules as such are imposed. But over the past 3 months (yes it was 3 months yesterday since Sir and this girl met in person for the first time), subtle changes have taken place. Sir has exerted his Dominance over this girl and she has complied with his wishes (sometimes more readily than at other times).

Firstly there was the ownership of orgasms - this girl firstly should ask to be granted an orgasm and then she must tell Him that it belongs to Him, even if He is not present. Generally this girl needs few orgasms if he is not around, but if she does she complies with this rule. Of course in His presence, she asks if in a position to do so (i.e. able to speak) and likewise gives it to Him.

Next there was the whole third person thing. This girl thought perhaps He had done a little mad when He made this request. He said He felt it would help with this girl's submission. She thought that unlikely and anyway couldn't imagine doing it. Now, she writes this way most of the time, increasingly does when they are together and amazingly has started to think in that way A LOT of the time.

Then there is how this girl should refer to Him. Standard stuff - the Sir thing. Is this a rule? Not really, but this girl is increasingly comfortable with it. There are times increasingly when He is Master. He sees himself as this girl's owner and so is her Master. Sometimes also He likes to be referred to as Lord. This girl can never quite tell if he is joking or not, but is not about to start calling Him Lord when they are out and about. Sir, on the other hand will happen pretty soon.

There are issues of behaviour. Of this girl remembering her place and role when she and Sir are out together. There are still signs of Julie coming through - of trying to take the lead. But fewer. This girl is much more comfortable with this, so much so that at times she likes him to order for her completely. She is less worried at knowing exactly what they will be doing and where they will be going. She trusts Him and wants Him to take control much much more in this way (please).

Lastly (i think), there is hair. He requested that this girl doesn't completely shave, but leaves a small 'bush' for Him to play with and wipe himself on (though He hasn't done the latter yet). This girl has happily complied and the hair is starting to return nicely to the area that He marked out.

No this girl doesn't have or need rules......does she?

8 comments:

  1. You have rules, though you look at it the same way I do. These behaviors please Him, so we comply.

    Do I have rules? Sure. Yet it has never been defined as rules. He calls it behavior modifications.

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  2. Personally I think this might be the way to go about the whole 'rule' thing. No doubt also this isn't the end of the matter!

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  3. Like you,,,and His...we think of them more as expectations...it is what He expects, and i want to please Him...so.....On the other hand, i have been punished for forgetting...not often, but it has happened..
    hugs abby

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    1. I've been punished too. My mouth gets me in trouble. To me, punishment is a reminder of the displeasure in my behavior.

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  4. Whether or not you call them rules, it sounds like he is controlling your behavior and making you feel more submissive. Do you get punished if you don't follow them and what type of punishments does he give you when he is displeased with your behavior?

    FD

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    1. Yes he is controlling my behaviour and that essentially is at the centre of my submission - the need for control. There have been no overt punishments, but he is quite good at ignoring my bad, attention seeking behaviour.

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  5. As FD said...there is control. Is that not with in the bounds of rules. Its only been 3 months and look how far 'this girl' has come.

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  6. Yes you are right. Submitting to his control does fall within a 'rule' and generally I comply without question. I agree I have come a very long way in a short time.

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