Thursday 13 February 2014

Connection

I am feeling a greater sense of connecting right now. For a start there is being in touch with Him and that process of getting to know each other. There is the feeling that He is enjoying finding out about me, my life and submission as much as i am about him. Of course, me being me - a person not averse to talking about herself - He is finding out way more about me than i am about him. But more information from his side will come.

I am also feeling a greater sense of connecting to my submission and in getting feedback on how that looks and feels to another. He keeps talking about my willingness to worship him and his cock. First of all, i thought he had been here reading my blog, but He tells me that He is avoiding coming to read it on purpose as He knows this will be where I explore my feelings. For now I can't pretend that I am glad about that. I definitely need that space.

I have had a couple of fetlife emails recently from people who have read my blog. Who knew that people would find what i say interesting and in even a small way useful. I am particularly interested in their responses as in the main they come from Doms. My online sub friends generally post here rather than mailing so this is different. It is so important though to connect to others - one of the greatest joys of this world is that connection with others. The level of understanding and of non judgemental thoughts (even when others don't necessarily agree with what you do or say).

I went out with a real life friend last evening (an ex work mate) who has been an amazing support with the whole hubby / S thing. She has no idea of the D/s side of things but is in no doubt of the importance of connection and of sex within a relationship.

After months of mainly writing in a negative way i feel very positive. That i am moving in the right direction in so many ways and that reconnecting as i am with my thoughts and feelings around submission is the right way to go.

Just hoping that for at least a while, nothing bursts my bubble.......

8 comments:

  1. fantastic! go for it Joolz. I think you are blossoming beyond S. He brought you part way on your journey and now you are ready to fly.

    L xx

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    1. Thanks L, I think you are right. I am under no illusions that this will be plain sailing, but i am having serious fun again! xx

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  2. Good luck as you continue your journey. I am sure all of your blogger friends wish you the best and that your bubble isn't burst and He will know how to meet your needs and explore your submissive side. Will look forward to more posts on how things go in the future.

    FD

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    1. Thanks FD, I am sure there is much more to come J xx

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  3. I hope this journey allows you to really explore your submissive side...sounds like it is off to a good start.
    hugs abby

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  4. That is interesting it took me back a moment. I did not even think about replying here in front of the whole world but why. That I will have to ponder a bit. What I did pickup on tho was your positive thinking very soon after you split with S. Go with it it looks good on you.

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  5. Welcome to my blog Steel50, thanks for commenting. Yes, I definitely was pretty positive and proactive pretty quickly which tells you something. J xx

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