Do you fear how far you might go in your submission i.e. things perhaps you were sure you would never do, or do you just feel excitement
As far as I can see things right now, I am pretty much open to most ideas. I thought I didn't like too much pain, but it turns out that actually I do. So far, Graeme tells me He has held back on the pain front and I probably can't argue with that as I definitely haven't reached any kind of limit with Him on that.
But actually I don't think pain and humiliation are my greatest challenge. For me it is about how i change my behaviours when i am with Him. Over the past couple of days we have discussed this quite a bit. For the most part when we are out together i am happy to just let him take the lead, but every now and then the me that wants to take over just, well, takes over.
i am clear that my submission now is about expanding the boundaries around giving up control in new ways. Perhaps not jumping in to organise things in a restaurant? Perhaps stepping back when i normally would wade in?
For me this is something new and equally something that i have spoken of. I have taken so much control during my marriage, letting go in real life situations is quite tricky. That is my challenge.
What 3 things are high on your kink list?
This is harder, since i have done quite a lot!!
First i would like to try the girl thing again. Last time, well although it was fun i didn't really think it was for me. But if that was what was wanted of me, to please my Dom then yes, i would be happy to go again.
Second really is piercings - not essentially kink but the reason for them and the things that could be done because of them are kinky. Graeme and i have been discussing nipple and clit hood piercings for me. i am pretty sure they will happen this year. and then the kinky sky might well be my oyster
So i am now seeing Gadget Man, and in the past month i have been exposed to experiences that i could never have imagined. I think my fantasy would be a new toy He hasn't tried before and for which i am His first guinea pig.
These are my first March Questions - does anyone have any more?