Thursday 17 January 2013

Pain and pleasure

i have always known that there is a fine line between something that is pleasurable and something that is unpleasant, painful even. That sometimes you have to endure a little pain in order for the pleasure to be revealed. The pain of childbirth for example, which is immediately followed by the overwhelming feeling of pleasure as you hold your baby in your arms. But before i began on this journey, i had little experience of pain in a sexual sense. i had little idea that my body would respond in the way it does to pain.

At the beginning of our relationship, we were both a little reticent when it came to pain and Him inflicting it on me. We had anal sex pretty much immediately, and that was a little painful in the first instance, immediately giving way to pleasure. But Master didn't rush to spank me or cause me pain in any other way. That has come gradually as we have explored my limits and He has grown to recognise my needs.

One of my first experiences of the pain / pleasure duo was when i put clothes pegs on my nipples, during a telephone conversation with Him. He could immediately tell i was finding the experience pleasurable, even while i was still feeling pain and when we next met, He introduced nipple clamps. These have been one of my biggest sources of pleasure, and even as He puts them on my, i have an urge to open my legs wide for Him as my pussy gushes forth. Squeezing and biting my nipples has a similar effect, very useful for reminding me who and what i am.

Increasingly Master is using various implements (recently a belt) to spank me and again i find the experience unpleasantly painful and wonderfully arousing at the same time. i particularly love it when he gets close to my pussy with the swipes of the belt which turns me on so much.

This past weekend, i found pain a great way to level me and reintroduce my mind and body to my submission. He had me telling him time and again about the slut, the whore that i am. While i could feel pain, whether from being spanked, pinched, squeezed, clamped or as his cock entered my needy body, i felt the juices flow from me, and the arousal within me. It felt like i had come home.

That is probably why i have struggled to get myself back together this week and why i am missing Him and my submission this week. i would give anything to get some pain and pleasure right now!

8 comments:

  1. I have come to the conclusion (i have no scientific evidence to back this up lol) that pain is or can be addictive.

    Enjoy!

    x

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    1. i completely agree tori and i think that might account for my own progression with pain. i intend to enjoy it, thanks xx

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  2. That pain/pleasure connection is one I will never understand...but I am extremely grateful that Master does!
    hugs abby

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    1. Nor me, but likewise i am glad that my Master pushes my limits in this way xx

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  3. Oh pain is certainly addictive for me.. sigh. I don't know why it arouses me so and after a long time of trying to figure that out.. I just accept it and try to be graceful and grateful!

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    1. i agree it is best not to spend too much time wondering why and be grateful that it does. xx

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  4. Oh, I'm with you on the erotic pain directly leading to me being a wonton slut! Oh, lordy! What's interesting is all of the things that I thing we're raised believing are "off limits" that when we try them...Holy Cow!!! It's awesome that you have such a great connection to your Sir and that you can navigate the waters together. It's a gift to have someone to explore your fantasies and push your limits and help you re-center yourself when needed. I am so glad you had a great time!!

    And Tori...I TOTALLY agree...pain can be addictive!! Those damn endorphins!

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    1. i agree, it is great exploring things we have been brought up to believe we shouldn't. you are right i am so lucky to be exploring this with my Sir. Does it show that i had a good time? :)

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