Tuesday 1 January 2013

New Year and time to think ahead


The past month has been pretty difficult and has in many ways overshadowed the previous wonderful ones. Today though, as well as being the start of a new year is also the 9 month anniversary of Sir and i first chatting online.

i cannot describe how much i have discovered about myself in that time and from where i sit most of it is good. While i didn't enjoy lying and deceiving hubby, i have found out that there is so much more to life that i hoped and dreamt of. If you had walked up to me on January 1st last year and told me that within months i would be on my knees before Sir, my nipples clamped, my hands restrained. That i would be telling Him what a whore i am, that i would be asking to suck His cock, asking for Him to Fuck me, use me. If you had told me that i would even contemplate anal sex much less enjoy it. i would have told you that you had gone barking mad. But all of the above is true. What is more, i have learnt that dressing up is not a chore, but exhilarating and arousing. i have discovered that while i am not keen on humiliation while it is happening, once again it is a huge turn on.

Time to move forward then, but actually without too much planning. While my visits to Sir need a little bit of organising, i don't plan to get too hung up on it all. i have to say that He has been wonderful over the past month. He has given me space, but at the same time has been there for me. i really can't wait to be with Him again in another couple of weeks. i am sure that he will have some kinky, humiliating and very very sexy ideas up his sleeve for our times together.

As for life with hubby again i am not thinking too far ahead; we will have to see how things go day to day. We do have some good things to look forward to though, particularly my son's graduation in the summer. i need to find myself a job (got a couple of applications in the pipeline), got to lose that post Christmas weight but nothing that can't be achieved with a view on that lovely corset!

So as a new year starts, i have to say that things don't feel too bad. In fact i feel strangely optimistic. Lets hope that this year is a good one for us all.

Picture from lovingdevotion

9 comments:

  1. Happy New Year Joolz! May what comes be exciting and intriguing and just what you need!

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    1. Thank you and Happy New Year to you too. I hope you are right! xx

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  2. Happy New Year Joolz! I am glad things are looking positive for you!

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    1. Thanks Mrs SB; Happy New Year to you too! xx

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  3. Happy Anniversary Blog-sister. I too celebrate with you :)

    We chatted online and shared our resolutions TO each other with each other. IT was good.

    I wish you every happiness and may you wear the corset soon, see your son graduate without too many tears in your eyes (so fotos will be gorgeous!) and have the answers you need at the times you need them. And the ability to be happy with them!

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    1. Thanks F, Happy Anniversary to you too. Thanks for your good wishes :) xx

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  4. Happy New Year,,,it sounds like you have arrived at a good place, at least for now. I share a lot of what you write about....enjoy the good times, be good to yourself, and know that we will support you.
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks Abby and thanks everyone for your continued support, it means so much to me xx

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  5. Hope this new year brings you much joy and happiness

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