Redundancy and then time off work has been great for my general wellbeing. I feel relaxed, my batteries recharged. It has done nothing for my weight.
This morning I decided to get back to my Wii work outs with Mel B. As I stood on the balance board, a message flashed across the screen - there is a marked difference in your weight since last time, are you sure you are J! Sadly, yes this is J, she is just heavier than she has ever been in her life.
I knew I had put on weight, my clothes (the ones that still fit) are tight. I am uncomfortable and while I have more energy because I am not tired, actually I know I am fat and unfit.
I have been eating too many bad things (e.g. cheese) and drinking too much (wine mainly). Spending the amount of time alone that I currently do, doesn't help.
Hubby remarked about my weight last night during a 'discussion'. I know he didn't mean to hurt me (not about that anyway), but he did. However he was right and I do need to do something about it.
Today, I have bitten the bullet and joined the online version of slimming world. I had good results in the past, but don't feel the need (yet), for group humiliation. I believe I can get myself into shape with a revised diet and a fitness programme.
Hubby suggested Sir must like me fat. I don't suppose he does, but he tends not to comment on these things. Plus he knows I have been under lots of stress and pressure at home. I bet though, that he would like to see me in that corset again, the one that is currently much much too small to do up!
I know its Thursday and traditionally we start these things on Monday. But when you realise you weigh more than you did when you gave birth, it is time for action. That is what I am going to try to do!
Update: Sir, can you help offer up any incentives for getting thinner and fitter?